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[18 Feb 2007|02:16pm] |
long story short
hospital. the virus that caused mono moved into my brain, inflaming the parts that control the left side of my body.
I went prom dress shopping yesterday and found one for 18 dollars. I was extremely proud of myself.
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So lets roll the past three or so holidays into a couple of sentences.
I couldnt be more lucky with the people in my life. I am lucky enough to have a great family, loving boyfriend, and amazing friends. And for that I am incredibly thankful ...*thanksgiving*
So "santa" brought me XM satellite radio which is awesome because I basically live in my car and such . I ate massive amounts of bad food but it was lovely.
New year's was nice. The kiss at 12:00 was a cute new experience. Overall it was a good year. Much better than sophomore year. Of course I was a weird kid back then.
( More of new year's that involved a lot of whining / bitching )
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[08 Dec 2006|09:27pm] |
boyfriend > yours
He totally rapped Dr. Seuss today. He is indeed amazing.
Doctors are worthless. I hate them with a fiery passion.
I love this weather
Congrats on all those who got into UF
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[28 Nov 2006|08:22pm] |
So, mass amounts of pain due to Sever's but I should be used to that.
I think I finally figured out why I love to work out to the point of exhaustion. All day I sit in school and all I have to do is bullshit my way through everything. But when it comes to working out you cant bullshit that. Your coach says do 15 suicides and watches you. There isnt really a way to get around doing that. I think I also love being able to overcome physical exhaustion with will. Theres something satisfying about being able to go on even though you cant breath and ever muscle in your body is burning. idk... maybe im just weird
Koala yummies were a staple of my childhood and I love them very much.
*shrugs*
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[26 Nov 2006|02:39pm] |
So school starts tomorrow and I have neglected to anything productive until like an hour ago...oops
I told my parents that I smoked pot / cigarettes. They arent treating me any different, and I kinda wish they would just yell at me so I could stop feeling guilty about them treating me right after I lied to them... I know im weird.
I think I might go running before school tomorrow. But then again that would involve way too much effort way too early.
*shrugs*
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[20 Nov 2006|02:47pm] |
I havent posted in forever. I always start out by saying that but whatever
Carlos met Michael... that was very awkward.
Apparently I pulled a muscle in my chest while sleeping, and now it hurts really bad to breath
I <3 Michael Petelle Scherer
I love my friends a lot too.
thats all for now.
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[13 Oct 2006|07:38pm] |
its been a good while since I updated
I killed my hair and carlos' within the past 48 hours it was pretty sweet.
Mr. oberg is really hilarious
Quote of the year
" You said you hated me, so I tried to eat your shoulder"
I love rachel anne collins
post script
I should post more often
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[27 Sep 2006|10:26pm] |
This week is really long I wish it would end.
Class color day was pretty much really awesome. I missed powderpuff due to work. I dont think I wouldve gone anyway.
I <3 Anna Taylor Peak and Ciara Nicole Chapman. But not michael scherer, that bitch sold me out for dew =P
yay saturday is going to be fucking amazing
More later I suppose.
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[21 Sep 2006|06:53pm] |
HA
I can do both!
Post Script : LTJ TONIGHT!!!
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[14 Sep 2006|10:13pm] |
At some point seeta rachel and I counted how many clubs and shit we are in and collectively its somewhere around the high 20's.
Ive stopped expecting to ever to get to relax. Its kinda weird waking up and going "sweet I got 6 hours of sleep thats alot!"
Im afraid im going to look back on high school and regret not enjoying it more. But then im also afraid of not getting into college if I dont literally throw myself at school. I cant seem to strike a happy medium. I keep saying yes to more and more things. Volunteering and promising myself Ill find a way to make it work. I want to drop out of things but dont at the same time
Whatever ill make it work . I did it to myself and I can handle it myself.
Post Script
Is anyone else glad that octopi can't fly?
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[19 Aug 2006|08:44pm] |
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so its been a while since ive written in here.
Nothing really exciting happened. For some reason I can't hold grudges anymore. I just dont have enough energy . I know I should probably file some complaint against granning for saying that I shouldve been aborted but he can be a jackass like that so I dont really care enough.
fox shoot today was really cool. I got a date to homecoming! and kim made out with a dog ... * again*
I think I broke my toe, but its okay because at least I did it in a non retard fashion this time. My mom wants me to get it x-rayed but I dont see the point because they dont do anything for toes.... they just go " That sucks ass for you"
Tropical Cafe is really really good.
Im not going to be ready to test which sucks because im going to fall behind and blah blah blahwhatever.
uhh school... I think catcom might kill me. I find myself drinking more and more caffeine to make it through the day YAY CAT
All in all im pretty content right now. I have the most amazing friends a girl could ever ask for and my family is pretty sweet. I dont have a boyfriend but I honestly dont think I could handle it right now...so life is good
Post. Script
*most emo part of post disclaimer*
It didnt work, so I dont know why I think it would the second time... or maybe thats just normal.
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[31 Jul 2006|06:46pm] |
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catcom
catcom
lake
white
toronski
oberg
terry
WTF WHITE AGAIN?!?!
All in all im pretty happy. It could be a lot worse. Sorry people that have marger!
Other stuff....
I dont know if this qualifies as emo but it probably qualifies as something I shouldn't be posted. and it qualifies as something that doesnt matter much for sure.
I feel really weird. I feel clearly defined as a person. I have my beliefs and they feel right.but the other day I was sitting at panera and I saw this 60 or so year old woman sitting by herself reading a newspaper. I then realzied that if I didnt get married and dont have children which is what I keep saying im going to do, im going to be like that. I didnt know how I felt about that , but it just kinda freaked me out. One day im going to be old. I going to be one of these people that needs help doing everyday tasks. It freaked me out that for many years ill keep growing, getting stronger, learning more, and having more fun. Im so freaked out that one day Ill start wasting away. Thats probably melodramatic but Im going to be one of these people one day that is going to say " I used to be able to do that" I just dont know. what if I fuck up so bad that im just a disgusting person? what if I get the high power career I desire but im the most unhappy person in the world? what if I end up getting married and staying at home? what if I dont get anywhere near what I want? what is all this work for?
I want a guarantee on life so very badly. I want a plan. But then on the other hand there is nothing I love more in a person than spontaneity. It is one of the most attractive qualites to me and I dont know why.
I havent been this happy with myself in a while. Someone said it was all a rebel facade but I dont think thats true. Im not rebelling and I dont put on facades. Doing what feels right as long as its safe, feels so much better than doing what I think is right. Sure im not quite as organized, and my grades not quite as high, im a lot happier.
I miss loving a sport. I miss living a sport. I lived gymnastics. It dictated my life. I was toned and felt incredible but that was when I was little. When I got older I never knew anything else. I always knew that never fail, Id be at the gym. I guess more than anything I miss the routine. I dont miss the heartache. I dont miss the violent coaches. I dont miss the lies. I dont miss the broken bones. I dont know what exactly it is that I got from it, but I stillmiss it after nearly 5 years of quitting.
I realize im not incredibly hot, I realize im not incredibly pretty, I realize im not incredibly smart, I realize im not incredibly giving, I realize im not incredibly outgoing. I realize that im not really incredibly anything. But for some reason Im really okay with that. I finally feel good about who I have come to be and the choices I am making
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[28 Jul 2006|07:48pm] |
so this post is really emo and probably wont stay posted for long as of the stupidity of it.
I just don't understand how the "pothead" could be more understanding, more civil, and quite frankly more mature. I dont get how much he says he is calculated and has reason but is acting like child. I realize I fucked up but my god how old am I? We werent going to get married and I wasnt harming him in anyway. Seriously, I wish he would get over it. I try and talk to him and its just a damaging and futile choice, in the words of rachel. It just pains me to know that something so small can turn into something so big. So hurtful
Bleh, my belly button ring is infected.
School hasnt even started, but I hate it already.
On some happier notes.....
Yesterday Rachel and I made amazing scone loaf and developed plans for our futures that owned any other ones we had in the face. We then brought the remaining scone loaf to Kim and lit it on fire.
Less than Jake is coming and im excited
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[26 Jul 2006|08:24pm] |
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So now I have to retype this again because Rachel is efficently lame and uses timestamps.
Today I woke up and was like "ehh, im so bored." So then rachel suggest that I get my belly button pierced today because I didn't want to wait for her birthday which is like two months away. So after badgering my parents into letting me get it done today, which took quite a bit of effort we had to go pick my mom up from work. So Rachel came over to my house and then we went downtown with my parents and we saw shappy. Yay run on sentences! Anyway, then we went to the atomic piercing place and it was closed due to power outage. We were like " Wtf, you do not need power to do a piercing, it could be done by flashlight." But my mom was like " AHH ITS A SIGN!", and I just rolled my eyes.so then we went to the poda tattoos place but they said that the norarized consent form we had for atomic wouldn't work there. So they gave us one of their forms and we went to the amscot place nearby to get it notarized but they said that their notary hadleft for the day and we were like "NOOOO!!!!1" And we were ready to give up but my dad said we should keep questing and go to the other amscot place which was like ten minutes away. So we did and they were like "we don't notarize" and we were like "NOOOO!" again, but they were only kidding. So we got it notarized and went back to poda tattoos. Then the dude was like PAPERWORK up the wazoo! And it was kinda weird because they had this retarded sign and it said "piercing cage" I was just like "wtf." So then the dude laid out all the stuff he was going to use and I started getting nervous. Then he drew a little dot on my stomach and then made massive amounts of jokes about how painful it is. These were somewhat apperciated but not really. He also took a lot of time with this little clampy thing and pulling out my skin and such. Then he put the needle through, which hurt a lot less than I expected it to. And now this is what it looks like. I wiped off the blood just for you guys =) and rachel is the most amazing friend ever, for she quested with me for many hours. and apparently I am her guinea pig.
Because I(rachel) am getting this same piercing in 2 months for my birthday. and kirby's is pretty so now i am MASSIVELY JEAL0US.
thats it
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I cant bend at my waist, and rachel tells me it is quite amusing to watch me try and perform basic tasks without this ability.
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( yay )
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So a couple of days ago I went to eat at olive garden and found a bug in my soup. It was gross... like a lot
I got my hair cut.She cut it shorter than I wanted but oh well.
eh, im really sick, and pissed becaue if Im not better by the concert tomorrow that will suck.
LTJ is coming!!!!!! yay thats going to be fucking amazing... even more so than carlos mencia ( if you know what I mean)
weird update no? at least it was emo, or I dont think it was.
more later?
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[16 Jul 2006|01:10pm] |
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so today I woke up and went to go get rachel to go to panera, like we do practically everyday because st. pete sucks ass.
and now i (rachel) am sitting in kirby's room, and we're bored senseless.
oh at panera someone left a little slip of paper on kirby's windshield saying "HI =)" it was pretty random.
Okay, seriously how hard is to spell my name? I realize that it is uncommon but everytime I go to panera they spell it wrong. Not only that, but they spell it wrong differently. Yesterday it was Kerby, today it was Curby.
i laughed for a long time about this.
but I laughed at a creepy panera worker complimenting rachel's "pentagram"
kirby says that pentagram was code for boobs.
They serve crappy apples at panera.
then we went to target for no reason. we found a pretty lamp though, and smelled candles. and kirby tried on jeans that made her look like an optical illusion.
We decided that we would get emancipated from our parents and live together with that very pretty lamp in a cardboard box.
kirby tripped like 8 times in target. that's what she gets for being cheap and buying 4 dollar sandals at gap.
we just took random myspace-esque pictures but my mom lost my transfer cable thingy so you dont get to see them. ( rachel is sure you all are crushed and huddled in a corner crying).
L2punctuate kirby. oh, excuse me, curby.
My tongue is suffering from excess of ice breakers sours mints, and so is rachel's. However, we will continue to eat them in an effort to avoid eating food that actually is fattening such as Dairy Queen.... which I want really badly right now.
we should probably be able to think of something to do seeing that kirby has a car, but we can't, because we lose at life.
we're done. for now.
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[12 Jul 2006|10:23pm] |
Sooooooooooooooooooooo......
I am destined to be a crazy ass chick in college who gets picked up off the street by one best friend and lectured by the other.
Also, I would like to thank Drew, for he saved us.
Its not a phase.... its dabbling
Thank god that guy didnt know the 16-24 year old rule or Rachel would have been molested.
THE END
P.S
How many times do I have to say I'm sorry before he believes me.
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[08 Jul 2006|12:13am] |
bad timing
bad decision
bad comment
.... but no Im not. I really dont think I am a whore......
hahaha anyway
The sugar gliders peed on me =( but they make up for it with their intense exotic cuteness
I havent gotten paid in a good while. Im pretty sure I should work on that
I dont like this post it sounds to emo
Thats all I have to say
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